Moving schools sucks! I had to once. I went to my school all the way up till the year I had to go to high school. What's the big deal you … moremay ask. I graduated Jr. High with a class of 42. Moved into Houston with a class of 962. If that wasn't bad enough when I finally started to make friends they gave me the nickname Whitey, since I was one the very few white people in the school. No big deal right. Try to be taken seriously with the nickname Whitey. The girls say your name like your a joke, and when you're being serious I would always here people, no not people my best "friends" laugh and say "Fucking Whitey XD"
Nice to know they had my back. Assholes. I rarely hang out with them nowadays but when I do I remember why I don't. I don't even know if any of them remember my real name anymore. Never really been bullied but I salute you for knocking that fucker out. I heard the story on another thread and i truly am proud of you for sticking up for yourself.
I've put up with verbal abuse but that's as much as I ever had to deal with. I took an MMA class so if anybody were to attack me I know 5 different ways to break their arm. I don't know what possesses people to attack people but its nice to know when karma catches up to them.
Thanks man :)
My bullies used to call me nigga because my middle name sounds little bit like it.
Actually it sounds pretty much like … moreit.
Glad to know that you weren't never bullied, it isn't a fun experience.
Especially if you have no friends to defend you.
Yeah I know it happens. Whenever you are the minority in any group you will suffer sadly. But here is where I gotta kind of disagree with you about it being pretty even, cause we live in a world where if I stand up for myself they make a racial deal out it. I didn't hit him cause he's a Mexican, I hit him cause he was a jackass.... but that's a story for another day.
That would never happen here. In one of the whiter parts of America, Hispanics probably get it worse. Actually, knowing a lot of guys who've been in jail in these parts, I'd actually say it's pretty even.
Lol, that's a great story.
In California, I've asked my friends who've been in multiple times, and they say it's noticeably even, except for Asians, who there aren't many of... Then again, there aren't many Asians in my state, so...
Yeah I know it happens. Whenever you are the minority in any group you will suffer sadly. But here is where I gotta kind of disagree with … moreyou about it being pretty even, cause we live in a world where if I stand up for myself they make a racial deal out it. I didn't hit him cause he's a Mexican, I hit him cause he was a jackass.... but that's a story for another day.
But over here though the Asians are the only ones that don't start trouble really. They talk about everybody else like they are a bunch of psychos but you cant really disagree with them cause they kind of make a point..... Hmmmm I need to find me an Asian girlfriend :)
In California, I've asked my friends who've been in multiple times, and they say it's noticeably even, except for Asians, who there aren't many of... Then again, there aren't many Asians in my state, so...
Not exactly sure what you were talking about?
But over here though the Asians are the only ones that don't start trouble really. They … moretalk about everybody else like they are a bunch of psychos but you cant really disagree with them cause they kind of make a point..... Hmmmm I need to find me an Asian girlfriend :)
Oh ok that's what I thought you meant. Its because most Asians have respect for their elders and believe their actions represent their families, and where they come from. I don't ever think I've met the punk type when it comes to them. Plus they have the funniest sense of humor when it comes with screwing with people. I had a friend who would curse out our Spanish teacher (who was a total racist bitch) in Korean and would get away with it just because she didn't know what he was saying lol even taught me some words that I've sadly forgotten.
Oh ok that's what I thought you meant. Its because most Asians have respect for their elders and believe their actions represent their fami… morelies, and where they come from. I don't ever think I've met the punk type when it comes to them. Plus they have the funniest sense of humor when it comes with screwing with people. I had a friend who would curse out our Spanish teacher (who was a total racist bitch) in Korean and would get away with it just because she didn't know what he was saying lol even taught me some words that I've sadly forgotten.
Here in Houston we have a rather large part of Houston called China town (racist now that I think about it since most are Korean) and still you never really here of anything bad happening over there. There was a gang problem about a year ago but they didn't let that get out of hand.
Here in Houston we have a rather large part of Houston called China town (racist now that I think about it since most are Korean) and still … moreyou never really here of anything bad happening over there. There was a gang problem about a year ago but they didn't let that get out of hand.
Okay, I know this didn't start as something serious, but I wanna say what you guys are doing here is something HUGE. I'm not talking about foot fetishes or peeing on the side of the toilet, I'm talking about opening yourself to others and let all that bad stuff just vent off.
So I guess I want to give my share now. Here I go (yay!)
I'm completely disappointed with myself. Not like I've fucked up anything yet (too young yet, barely 16) but I lack confidence in myself. I find that I have talent to do what I love, more than most people, but I don't have the will to use it. I feel like whenever I try to play music, I'm not being honest with myself and others. It's like I pretend I am able to do what I'm supposed to, but deep inside I know I'm not. And that isn't really THAT bad. What is really bad is the fact that all these feelings have completely fucked me up psychologically and now I also lack honesty in human relationships. I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm just terrified. I'm nobody. But I pretend I'm somebody.
I don't expect anyone to understand this, I don't know if I've explained myself how I should have. It's so fucking hard to describe...
I have to agree with you. After an injury I had to stop dancing and that was the most miserable year of my life. I really don't know how I'd be now if I hadn't decided to come back. It really does help a lot.
Sorry if I'm being invasive, but maybe you should go and find and activity that you love?
In my case music is the main source of my pro… moreblems. But, the times I do enjoy it... dude, there's nothing like it.
Seriously, if you haven't tried something new go and please do. Helps more than you'd believe.
That's just a human tendency. Society has brought us up to believe we have to be a certain way, and sometimes lying is our subconscious mind's first response. This leads to loss of belief in oneself... All eventually leading to a lack of clarity on who you are as a person.
Your mind is just playing tricks on you. Don't let it get to you. Who you "pretend" to be, sometimes is who you really are. Just do what feels natural, and if nothing does... Then you have unlimited opportunities to find yourself.
PS: Music is a fantastic outlet - nothing can express certain emotions more than song. Take it from an artist. :)
Okay, I know this didn't start as something serious, but I wanna say what you guys are doing here is something HUGE. I'm not talking about … morefoot fetishes or peeing on the side of the toilet, I'm talking about opening yourself to others and let all that bad stuff just vent off.
So I guess I want to give my share now. Here I go (yay!)
I'm completely disappointed with myself. Not like I've fucked up anything yet (too young yet, barely 16) but I lack confidence in myself. I find that I have talent to do what I love, more than most people, but I don't have the will to use it. I feel like whenever I try to play music, I'm not being honest with myself and others. It's like I pretend I am able to do what I'm supposed to, but deep inside I know I'm not. And that isn't really THAT bad. What is really bad is the fact that all these feelings have completely fucked me up psychologically and now I also lack honesty in human relationships. I don'… [view original content]
That's just a human tendency. Society has brought us up to believe we have to be a certain way, and sometimes lying is our subconscious min… mored's first response. This leads to loss of belief in oneself... All eventually leading to a lack of clarity on who you are as a person.
Your mind is just playing tricks on you. Don't let it get to you. Who you "pretend" to be, sometimes is who you really are. Just do what feels natural, and if nothing does... Then you have unlimited opportunities to find yourself.
PS: Music is a fantastic outlet - nothing can express certain emotions more than song. Take it from an artist. :)
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My bullies used to call me nigga because my middle name sounds little bit like it.
Actually it sounds pretty much like it.
Glad to know that you weren't never bullied, it isn't a fun experience.
Especially if you have no friends to defend you.
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But over here though the Asians are the only ones that don't start trouble really. They talk about everybody else like they are a bunch of psychos but you cant really disagree with them cause they kind of make a point..... Hmmmm I need to find me an Asian girlfriend :)
So I guess I want to give my share now. Here I go (yay!)
I'm completely disappointed with myself. Not like I've fucked up anything yet (too young yet, barely 16) but I lack confidence in myself. I find that I have talent to do what I love, more than most people, but I don't have the will to use it. I feel like whenever I try to play music, I'm not being honest with myself and others. It's like I pretend I am able to do what I'm supposed to, but deep inside I know I'm not. And that isn't really THAT bad. What is really bad is the fact that all these feelings have completely fucked me up psychologically and now I also lack honesty in human relationships. I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm just terrified. I'm nobody. But I pretend I'm somebody.
I don't expect anyone to understand this, I don't know if I've explained myself how I should have. It's so fucking hard to describe...
Whatever, I want EPISODE 3 muthafaka
In my case music is the main source of my problems. But, the times I do enjoy it... dude, there's nothing like it.
Seriously, if you haven't tried something new go and please do. Helps more than you'd believe.
Your mind is just playing tricks on you. Don't let it get to you. Who you "pretend" to be, sometimes is who you really are. Just do what feels natural, and if nothing does... Then you have unlimited opportunities to find yourself.
PS: Music is a fantastic outlet - nothing can express certain emotions more than song. Take it from an artist. :)
I know that 90% percent of my problems are just probably overthinking, but I can't help it.
Well, thanks again