My mental health problem
I'm going to a psychiatrist about this in a few days but I thought i'd get some other peoples opinions to see if they have dealt with anything like this. A few years back i started having these blackouts. They would feel like they would happen in an instant but then id wake up and sometimes minutes or even hours have passed and usually im in a different place from when i blacked out. I had this sudden feeling of guilt like i had done something wrong but i had no clue what this was. I later hear from my mom that there had been payments coming out of her bank account for various things that I possibly bought. I had no idea of any of this but she saw that it couldve only have been me. I pieced everything else to me realising that i had done this but at the same time i knew that whilst i did it, it still felt like i didnt. I looked online at these symptoms and what they could mean and i was mostly lead to D.I.D (Dissociative Identity Disorder). After realising this i felt like I was able to control it and i think i did for a while but recently ive been having the same symptoms of the blackouts and the guilt and at some point after piecing everything together i had realised that I had done something that I wanted to do but the way that this was carried out was horrible and it wouldnt of been something that i wouldve done.
It is related to a girl and i got asked that if i had done this action to which i answered no because i had no remembrance of doing such a thing. I wondered why she thought that it was me at first so i looked into it and everything points to me and by looking at it i know its me but at the same time i dont remember doing it nor do i remember what i did during that time that it was taken place.