Alright if that's what you think is best, I'll respect that decision then. I understand. I'm not gonna stop you, as a friend I must back you up in any way I can. But if you ever want to talk to anyone join the Steam Community so we can talk.
Cool and also reveal a secret I don't know how much longer I'll be on the forum it could be anyday now I'll leave. I hate telltale and their… more games apart from S1 and see them as nothing but gangsters treating their customers like idiots with their explanations and all this Soon stuff and I won't be buying another telltale game (longstory).
Only reason I'm still here is because of my Bro's and Sistah's and this thread.
Anyway really long story and have many reasons to do with the forum and few things pissing me off here recently and this is most likely my last last few days on the forum I thought about it for a while tbh
That drawing teared me up.
I love you, too, big brother. I wish i could be useful and... And, i don't know, do something to help, but... … moreBut i don't know what, or how, or when, and i am getting more confused by the second, because i really DO love you all, and i really DO love this place, more than i should, more than i am allowed to, and i...
The only thing connecting us is my laptop. Without it, i would have never met you guys. I would be dead. A machine connects countless people from all over the world and i love you all, but repeating this phrase doesn't alter the... The unlikeliness of it. But i DO love you all a whole lot.
And, with the voices...
I feel you, Tobi.
Yep.
Azlyn I heard you don't want to see me and Tobi's pictures in the lounge but I know you can't resist the sexy beasts much longer though you know you want to lol
Cool and also reveal a secret I don't know how much longer I'll be on the forum it could be anyday now I'll leave. I hate telltale and their… more games apart from S1 and see them as nothing but gangsters treating their customers like idiots with their explanations and all this Soon stuff and I won't be buying another telltale game (longstory).
Only reason I'm still here is because of my Bro's and Sistah's and this thread.
Anyway really long story and have many reasons to do with the forum and few things pissing me off here recently and this is most likely my last last few days on the forum I thought about it for a while tbh
Cool and also reveal a secret I don't know how much longer I'll be on the forum it could be anyday now I'll leave. I hate telltale and their… more games apart from S1 and see them as nothing but gangsters treating their customers like idiots with their explanations and all this Soon stuff and I won't be buying another telltale game (longstory).
Only reason I'm still here is because of my Bro's and Sistah's and this thread.
Anyway really long story and have many reasons to do with the forum and few things pissing me off here recently and this is most likely my last last few days on the forum I thought about it for a while tbh
Sometimes I wish the world was smaller myself, or have the ability to teleport in order to see everyone.
BTW are you on steam later? I gotta go shortly and I wont be back until it's 12 cuz of the picnic.
I saw your post azlyn. First of all, let me just say, if you don't watch dexter....watch dexter. Not because it is a good show, but because it relates to so many people. We're all monsters. We put on clothes, style our hair. ,put on makeup if you're a girl, and you go out there and pretend to be normal. Oh, but you don't know my weakness. Because..... Like you... I'm a special kind of monster. Emotions? I've always been able to just move them out of my way.... Push them to the side.... So I don't have a weakness.... unless that is my weakness… You know, to me, it always feels like emotions are a separate thing. Like they're all in a bag that I can just drop whenever I want to. It's liberating… and terrifying. But if I get terrified… I just drop the emotional bag. because sometimes emotions are just dead weight. sometimes it's better to let them go. but not always.
Not feeling anything is impossible. For me, at least. It still hurts. I still feel like i'm drowning. And the thing is, i can't ask for help from anyone but you guys, and i can't ask you all of help either, because you can't provide me with anything but words.
If i told ANYONE that i know that it hurts, they'd either laugh at me, call me ungrateful, slap me across the face, start crying, or... Or just not believe me. And it would make it hurt even worse. At least i'm alright, huh.
I saw your post azlyn. First of all, let me just say, if you don't watch dexter....watch dexter. Not because it is a good show, but because… more it relates to so many people. We're all monsters. We put on clothes, style our hair. ,put on makeup if you're a girl, and you go out there and pretend to be normal. Oh, but you don't know my weakness. Because..... Like you... I'm a special kind of monster. Emotions? I've always been able to just move them out of my way.... Push them to the side.... So I don't have a weakness.... unless that is my weakness… You know, to me, it always feels like emotions are a separate thing. Like they're all in a bag that I can just drop whenever I want to. It's liberating… and terrifying. But if I get terrified… I just drop the emotional bag. because sometimes emotions are just dead weight. sometimes it's better to let them go. but not always.
Cool and also reveal a secret I don't know how much longer I'll be on the forum it could be anyday now I'll leave. I hate telltale and their… more games apart from S1 and see them as nothing but gangsters treating their customers like idiots with their explanations and all this Soon stuff and I won't be buying another telltale game (longstory).
Only reason I'm still here is because of my Bro's and Sistah's and this thread.
Anyway really long story and have many reasons to do with the forum and few things pissing me off here recently and this is most likely my last last few days on the forum I thought about it for a while tbh
For me, it isn't that I don't feel. it's that whenever I need to, I can take my feelings and distance them from myself. To be honest, I could write something about staying positive, or strong, or whatever, but like you said… It's just words. It won't fix everything. And, hey. You told us that it hurts. We know you. I'm starting to believe we on the forum know you better than anyone in Romania. And that's okay. Because we know, and we won't laugh, insult, attack, break down, or disbelieve you. Because you're one of us. You, salt lick, awesome, toni, papa, walkingmoustache, that 1 guy, goustttt, whattowritehere, they're all part of us. And you always will be.
Not feeling anything is impossible. For me, at least. It still hurts. I still feel like i'm drowning. And the thing is, i can't ask for help… more from anyone but you guys, and i can't ask you all of help either, because you can't provide me with anything but words.
If i told ANYONE that i know that it hurts, they'd either laugh at me, call me ungrateful, slap me across the face, start crying, or... Or just not believe me. And it would make it hurt even worse. At least i'm alright, huh.
If you feel that way, maybe you should ask for help. I mean that honestly. There's only so much people over the Internet can do for you, Azlyn, although I'm certain they do mean well. Perhaps your parents? I hope I'm not upsetting you.
Not feeling anything is impossible. For me, at least. It still hurts. I still feel like i'm drowning. And the thing is, i can't ask for help… more from anyone but you guys, and i can't ask you all of help either, because you can't provide me with anything but words.
If i told ANYONE that i know that it hurts, they'd either laugh at me, call me ungrateful, slap me across the face, start crying, or... Or just not believe me. And it would make it hurt even worse. At least i'm alright, huh.
For me, it isn't that I don't feel. it's that whenever I need to, I can take my feelings and distance them from myself. To be honest, I coul… mored write something about staying positive, or strong, or whatever, but like you said… It's just words. It won't fix everything. And, hey. You told us that it hurts. We know you. I'm starting to believe we on the forum know you better than anyone in Romania. And that's okay. Because we know, and we won't laugh, insult, attack, break down, or disbelieve you. Because you're one of us. You, salt lick, awesome, toni, papa, walkingmoustache, that 1 guy, goustttt, whattowritehere, they're all part of us. And you always will be.
This song ALWAYS makes me cry. Either it's because i know what the story is actually about, and why it IS so sad, or just because it is... PERFECT. No, wait, i'm wrong. I'm not perfect. This song isn't perfect. Nothing is perfect. I guess perfection is a thing about perspective, huh? What i meant to say is, this song is beautiful. And it's one of my favorites. And it's like magic, whenever i hear it, i tear up. Just to compensate for not crying for 14 years, i guess, these past 2 days have been... LEAKY.
You're not, but you don't get it. I CAN'T. I can't tell anybody but you guys. That's the thing. Otherwise, i would have probably been put on medication or something. I don't know.
If you feel that way, maybe you should ask for help. I mean that honestly. There's only so much people over the Internet can do for you, Azlyn, although I'm certain they do mean well. Perhaps your parents? I hope I'm not upsetting you.
I watched it once, I don't know why but I can't watch or play things (except multiplayer games) more than once, those experiences to me are things I can only do once, then the rest is up to my imagination.
This anime gave me a lot of insights about life, did it give you any insights too?
This song ALWAYS makes me cry. Either it's because i know what the story is actually about, and why it IS so sad, or just because it is... P… moreERFECT. No, wait, i'm wrong. I'm not perfect. This song isn't perfect. Nothing is perfect. I guess perfection is a thing about perspective, huh? What i meant to say is, this song is beautiful. And it's one of my favorites. And it's like magic, whenever i hear it, i tear up. Just to compensate for not crying for 14 years, i guess, these past 2 days have been... LEAKY.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkqVm5aiC28#t=138
I watched it once, I don't know why but I can't watch or play things (except multiplayer games) more than once, those experiences to me are … morethings I can only do once, then the rest is up to my imagination.
This anime gave me a lot of insights about life, did it give you any insights too?
You're not, but you don't get it. I CAN'T. I can't tell anybody but you guys. That's the thing. Otherwise, i would have probably been put on medication or something. I don't know.
I don't know why but I just started to cry when you said that. No one ever said that about me. Thank you. If they do I just don't want them have my monstrous persona.
Jeez, bro. Thanks.
Do I really deserve such an awesome friend? Has my back even if we spend months without talking. Some of these Forumers should learn from you.
Well, I'll repeat it, Tobi. You're an amazing friend.
Most people here say they're your friends but they're only there for you for the nonsense talks and shenanigans. That's different from having your Bro's back. Thank you. You know you can count on me.
I don't know why but I just started to cry when you said that. No one ever said that about me. Thank you. If they do I just don't want them have my monstrous persona.
So I'm back from the picnic. It was alright, we got to see talent shows too with some Irish folk music(I LOVE IRISH MUSIC!). I decided to go home early cuz it was getting a bit too cold for me. Unfortunately my dad was being a HUGE asshole before we went.
Well, I'll repeat it, Tobi. You're an amazing friend.
Most people here say they're your friends but they're only there for you for the no… morensense talks and shenanigans. That's different from having your Bro's back. Thank you. You know you can count on me.
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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=umDr0mPuyQc
Me whenever this one crappy rom-com my cuz watches comes on...
Wat? Damn.... :C
Alright if that's what you think is best, I'll respect that decision then. I understand. I'm not gonna stop you, as a friend I must back you up in any way I can. But if you ever want to talk to anyone join the Steam Community so we can talk.
My username is TobiIsAGoodBoyY2K.
Sometimes I wish the world was smaller myself, or have the ability to teleport in order to see everyone.
BTW are you on steam later? I gotta go shortly and I wont be back until it's 12 cuz of the picnic.
Everyone's been calling me that lately. XD
I wont be on long cuz of the picnic and I probably wont be back until it's 12 pm in my zone.
Mark.
I'm sorry.
(No i'm not.)
But i can't let you leave.
>:C
Mark, don't leave! What is Batman without the Joker?
Later, i think so. If it works.
Uh-huh. Thanks.
A'ight, laters, Tobbs!
I saw your post azlyn. First of all, let me just say, if you don't watch dexter....watch dexter. Not because it is a good show, but because it relates to so many people. We're all monsters. We put on clothes, style our hair. ,put on makeup if you're a girl, and you go out there and pretend to be normal. Oh, but you don't know my weakness. Because..... Like you... I'm a special kind of monster. Emotions? I've always been able to just move them out of my way.... Push them to the side.... So I don't have a weakness.... unless that is my weakness… You know, to me, it always feels like emotions are a separate thing. Like they're all in a bag that I can just drop whenever I want to. It's liberating… and terrifying. But if I get terrified… I just drop the emotional bag. because sometimes emotions are just dead weight. sometimes it's better to let them go. but not always.
Glad to hear.
This is a pretty awesome mashup.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Hr7AW2z6J4
Not feeling anything is impossible. For me, at least. It still hurts. I still feel like i'm drowning. And the thing is, i can't ask for help from anyone but you guys, and i can't ask you all of help either, because you can't provide me with anything but words.
If i told ANYONE that i know that it hurts, they'd either laugh at me, call me ungrateful, slap me across the face, start crying, or... Or just not believe me. And it would make it hurt even worse. At least i'm alright, huh.
WHAT?!?!?!?!?!!?!?!??!?!?!?!?NO!!!!!YOU CAN'T LEAVE!!;(
For me, it isn't that I don't feel. it's that whenever I need to, I can take my feelings and distance them from myself. To be honest, I could write something about staying positive, or strong, or whatever, but like you said… It's just words. It won't fix everything. And, hey. You told us that it hurts. We know you. I'm starting to believe we on the forum know you better than anyone in Romania. And that's okay. Because we know, and we won't laugh, insult, attack, break down, or disbelieve you. Because you're one of us. You, salt lick, awesome, toni, papa, walkingmoustache, that 1 guy, goustttt, whattowritehere, they're all part of us. And you always will be.
If you feel that way, maybe you should ask for help. I mean that honestly. There's only so much people over the Internet can do for you, Azlyn, although I'm certain they do mean well. Perhaps your parents? I hope I'm not upsetting you.
Thanks, Commenter.
*sigh *
Welp, i'm having a mood swing again, and i'm feeling quite down. Got any good sad songs?
Unconditionally by Katy Perry?
This song ALWAYS makes me cry. Either it's because i know what the story is actually about, and why it IS so sad, or just because it is... PERFECT. No, wait, i'm wrong. I'm not perfect. This song isn't perfect. Nothing is perfect. I guess perfection is a thing about perspective, huh? What i meant to say is, this song is beautiful. And it's one of my favorites. And it's like magic, whenever i hear it, i tear up. Just to compensate for not crying for 14 years, i guess, these past 2 days have been... LEAKY.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nkqVm5aiC28#t=138
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OE8dOjOQ9MU
THIS HAS SPOILERS!
Nah.
I know this, the ending song.
;-;
I want season 2 now, i rewatched season 1 like 5 or 6 times.
You're not, but you don't get it. I CAN'T. I can't tell anybody but you guys. That's the thing. Otherwise, i would have probably been put on medication or something. I don't know.
I watched it once, I don't know why but I can't watch or play things (except multiplayer games) more than once, those experiences to me are things I can only do once, then the rest is up to my imagination.
This anime gave me a lot of insights about life, did it give you any insights too?
How old are you Azlyn? I seem to forget that piece of information which I seek and is now being asked in a question in the beginning of this comment.
Yeah... There are a lot of subliminal messages, and a lot of stuff to ponder on. Then again, i go deep on every damn thing i get my hands on.
I'm turning 14 tomorrow. You're 16, right?
And you don't want to?
I don't know why but I just started to cry when you said that. No one ever said that about me. Thank you. If they do I just don't want them have my monstrous persona.
Damnit the feels. Reminds me of Arkham City.... :C
Okay I understand.
Well, I'll repeat it, Tobi. You're an amazing friend.
Most people here say they're your friends but they're only there for you for the nonsense talks and shenanigans. That's different from having your Bro's back. Thank you. You know you can count on me.
Happy Birthday! (I feel bad for not knowing.)
Yep, I'm 16. You're my baby-sis then.
I'm back I didn't feel like staying too long. You could say before we went I was in a VERY bad mood.
How about this?
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v6935nBMoSY&feature=player_detailpage
So I'm back from the picnic. It was alright, we got to see talent shows too with some Irish folk music(I LOVE IRISH MUSIC!). I decided to go home early cuz it was getting a bit too cold for me. Unfortunately my dad was being a HUGE asshole before we went.
Thanks man. I don't often do this but....
BRO HUG
That's the reason I only comment in this thread. The other ones are buried for me.