For many, medication is like taking an individual, creative, real soul, and creating a mindless follow-the-rules drone. I don't know if that's how Az feels, but I can tell you that thought scares me.
I don't TAKE any kind of medication. Those pills are a strange body that finds its way into my system and changes the way i think, or act... I just... No, i don't want to take medication. I want it to stop hurting without having to go to that extent. If that's not possible, then i'll just bend over and take the pain longer. It will eventually stop, right? It has to.
For many, medication is like taking an individual, creative, real soul, and creating a mindless follow-the-rules drone. I don't know if that's how Az feels, but I can tell you that thought scares me.
I don't TAKE any kind of medication. Those pills are a strange body that finds its way into my system and changes the way i think, or act...… more I just... No, i don't want to take medication. I want it to stop hurting without having to go to that extent. If that's not possible, then i'll just bend over and take the pain longer. It will eventually stop, right? It has to.
I feel like i am abusing the "O rlly" these days, but it's okay. My dad's an asshole most of the times, too. I can call him an asshole, because i thought i should lie as less as possible.
So I'm back from the picnic. It was alright, we got to see talent shows too with some Irish folk music(I LOVE IRISH MUSIC!). I decided to go… more home early cuz it was getting a bit too cold for me. Unfortunately my dad was being a HUGE asshole before we went.
He started being a total fucker causing everyone to yell and I started to yell, he told everyone to get out, no one owns the house but him(which is bullshit cuz my bro and sis owns it too) and he said if I leave the house cuz of the fight he would burn the house down. I said "if you do I will fucking kill you" cuz 6 years of hard work and other memories are in it and destroying all that would destroy my one of my reasons to live. I was holding a rake thinking of stuff I would do and I stopped myself. As I left the picnic every dog near me barked cuz they knew I was a monster, waiting to be unleashed. I wasn't proud of what I wanted to do, and all the things I said to my family this morning. All these years of listening to my family argue drove almost over the edge. I just wanted it all to stop. That's why I like being alone sometimes so I cant hurt anybody...
Yeah, my personality is getting more dark as of late. I'm not happy. People I love are afraid of me. I am a monster. I want to stay away from others so I cant hurt them... I...
I want to be alone... I have to...
I'm not a good boy. I'm a freak. A monster. I don't deserve happiness if I'm willing to hurt my own family or my friends.
O rlly.
I feel like i am abusing the "O rlly" these days, but it's okay. My dad's an asshole most of the times, too. I can call him an asshole, because i thought i should lie as less as possible.
So I'm back from the picnic. It was alright, we got to see talent shows too with some Irish folk music(I LOVE IRISH MUSIC!). I decided to go… more home early cuz it was getting a bit too cold for me. Unfortunately my dad was being a HUGE asshole before we went.
I've been all through Canada 4 times and never worse a jacket. I'm not really a fair judge of when it's cold though, because the most I ever wear is an unlined flannel shirt, and I don't usually put that on until it hits freezing, and that's only if the wind is blowing. I'm always hot lol.
Tobi, you know that i mean it when i say i understand you. I'm not gonna say you're not a monster. You are. I'm one, too. That's what i've been trying to tell you all this time. But i can try and make you feel better, right?
That was a rethorical question, of course i can make you feel better. Cheer up. I'm still around, aren't i?
He started being a total fucker causing everyone to yell and I started to yell, he told everyone to get out, no one owns the house but him(w… morehich is bullshit cuz my bro and sis owns it too) and he said if I leave the house cuz of the fight he would burn the house down. I said "if you do I will fucking kill you" cuz 6 years of hard work and other memories are in it and destroying all that would destroy my one of my reasons to live. I was holding a rake thinking of stuff I would do and I stopped myself. As I left the picnic every dog near me barked cuz they knew I was a monster, waiting to be unleashed. I wasn't proud of what I wanted to do, and all the things I said to my family this morning. All these years of listening to my family argue drove almost over the edge. I just wanted it all to stop. That's why I like being alone sometimes so I cant hurt anybody...
Yeah, my personality is getting more dark as of late. I'm not happy. People I lov… [view original content]
I've been all through Canada 4 times and never worse a jacket. I'm not really a fair judge of when it's cold though, because the most I ever… more wear is an unlined flannel shirt, and I don't usually put that on until it hits freezing, and that's only if the wind is blowing. I'm always hot lol.
Tobi, you know that i mean it when i say i understand you. I'm not gonna say you're not a monster. You are. I'm one, too. That's what i've b… moreeen trying to tell you all this time. But i can try and make you feel better, right?
That was a rethorical question, of course i can make you feel better. Cheer up. I'm still around, aren't i?
It's not always in your best interest to ignore your problems and hope they go away. You don't talk to your parents at all about this? You should, in my opinion.
I don't TAKE any kind of medication. Those pills are a strange body that finds its way into my system and changes the way i think, or act...… more I just... No, i don't want to take medication. I want it to stop hurting without having to go to that extent. If that's not possible, then i'll just bend over and take the pain longer. It will eventually stop, right? It has to.
It's not always in your best interest to ignore your problems and hope they go away. You don't talk to your parents at all about this? You should, in my opinion.
He started being a total fucker causing everyone to yell and I started to yell, he told everyone to get out, no one owns the house but him(w… morehich is bullshit cuz my bro and sis owns it too) and he said if I leave the house cuz of the fight he would burn the house down. I said "if you do I will fucking kill you" cuz 6 years of hard work and other memories are in it and destroying all that would destroy my one of my reasons to live. I was holding a rake thinking of stuff I would do and I stopped myself. As I left the picnic every dog near me barked cuz they knew I was a monster, waiting to be unleashed. I wasn't proud of what I wanted to do, and all the things I said to my family this morning. All these years of listening to my family argue drove almost over the edge. I just wanted it all to stop. That's why I like being alone sometimes so I cant hurt anybody...
Yeah, my personality is getting more dark as of late. I'm not happy. People I lov… [view original content]
I have a friend who wears long Johns all summer and two pairs of socks. If I put that on at sub zero temps I'd sweat to death. Don't know how you can do it lol.
Uh All this gloomy shit is killing the mood. We should do something fun. Hmm.... OH I GOT ONE. Alright I want everyone to give themselves and two other characters of the comic a theme song. If you're not in the comic, you could still give yourself one. ;D
Uh All this gloomy shit is killing the mood. We should do something fun. Hmm.... OH I GOT ONE. Alright I want everyone to give themselves an… mored two other characters of the comic a theme song. If you're not in the comic, you could still give yourself one. ;D
I'll start first.
My theme:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcdWAJ13VBs&feature=player_detailpage
Azlyn's Theme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JX2xl3hd_zM&feature=player_detailpage
GuiltyKingaOumaShu (I found this song fitting to him for some reason as you can see him as some kind of revolutionary as well)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zk0Sr0C3yYM&feature=player_detailpage
OKAY YOUR TURN!
Uh All this gloomy shit is killing the mood. We should do something fun. Hmm.... OH I GOT ONE. Alright I want everyone to give themselves an… mored two other characters of the comic a theme song. If you're not in the comic, you could still give yourself one. ;D
I'll start first.
My theme:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcdWAJ13VBs&feature=player_detailpage
Azlyn's Theme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JX2xl3hd_zM&feature=player_detailpage
GuiltyKingaOumaShu (I found this song fitting to him for some reason as you can see him as some kind of revolutionary as well)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zk0Sr0C3yYM&feature=player_detailpage
OKAY YOUR TURN!
Cool and also reveal a secret I don't know how much longer I'll be on the forum it could be anyday now I'll leave. I hate telltale and their… more games apart from S1 and see them as nothing but gangsters treating their customers like idiots with their explanations and all this Soon stuff and I won't be buying another telltale game (longstory).
Only reason I'm still here is because of my Bro's and Sistah's and this thread.
Anyway really long story and have many reasons to do with the forum and few things pissing me off here recently and this is most likely my last last few days on the forum I thought about it for a while tbh
But it's your golden birthday. The one where the date matches your age. Mine isn't for another 13 years, so of course I'll make you a birthday thread. Just so you know we are here for you.
Uh All this gloomy shit is killing the mood. We should do something fun. Hmm.... OH I GOT ONE. Alright I want everyone to give themselves an… mored two other characters of the comic a theme song. If you're not in the comic, you could still give yourself one. ;D
I'll start first.
My theme:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcdWAJ13VBs&feature=player_detailpage
Azlyn's Theme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JX2xl3hd_zM&feature=player_detailpage
GuiltyKingaOumaShu (I found this song fitting to him for some reason as you can see him as some kind of revolutionary as well)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zk0Sr0C3yYM&feature=player_detailpage
OKAY YOUR TURN!
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For many, medication is like taking an individual, creative, real soul, and creating a mindless follow-the-rules drone. I don't know if that's how Az feels, but I can tell you that thought scares me.
14 tomorrow? I shall make a birthday thread!
Yeah, that game...
I don't TAKE any kind of medication. Those pills are a strange body that finds its way into my system and changes the way i think, or act... I just... No, i don't want to take medication. I want it to stop hurting without having to go to that extent. If that's not possible, then i'll just bend over and take the pain longer. It will eventually stop, right? It has to.
Close enough...
This one's alright. Not exactly my taste.
Here's a great one:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qA3oPpH7KVg#t=17
My brother takes strong nerve pills so he doesn't have nervous breakdowns. All the stress through the years got to him eventually when I was pre-teen.
Oh... How old is your bro?
Right now he is 39. It started when I was in Grade 6.
It's okay, i don't need people to really know. I don't see the big deals in birthdays, anyway.
But, thanks.
Big sis.
You don't have to.
Rule no. 3: Don't come out of the shadows.
I don't wanna come out of the shadows, homie.
T~T
*pulls up hoodie *
O rlly.
I feel like i am abusing the "O rlly" these days, but it's okay. My dad's an asshole most of the times, too. I can call him an asshole, because i thought i should lie as less as possible.
He started being a total fucker causing everyone to yell and I started to yell, he told everyone to get out, no one owns the house but him(which is bullshit cuz my bro and sis owns it too) and he said if I leave the house cuz of the fight he would burn the house down. I said "if you do I will fucking kill you" cuz 6 years of hard work and other memories are in it and destroying all that would destroy my one of my reasons to live. I was holding a rake thinking of stuff I would do and I stopped myself. As I left the picnic every dog near me barked cuz they knew I was a monster, waiting to be unleashed. I wasn't proud of what I wanted to do, and all the things I said to my family this morning. All these years of listening to my family argue drove almost over the edge. I just wanted it all to stop. That's why I like being alone sometimes so I cant hurt anybody...
Yeah, my personality is getting more dark as of late. I'm not happy. People I love are afraid of me. I am a monster. I want to stay away from others so I cant hurt them... I...
I want to be alone... I have to...
I'm not a good boy. I'm a freak. A monster. I don't deserve happiness if I'm willing to hurt my own family or my friends.
Fuck me, my mind is going insane because of this.
I'll never understand how people can be cold this time of year.
In Canada it's cold even in the spring sometimes. Even in the Summer I wear jackets.
I've been all through Canada 4 times and never worse a jacket. I'm not really a fair judge of when it's cold though, because the most I ever wear is an unlined flannel shirt, and I don't usually put that on until it hits freezing, and that's only if the wind is blowing. I'm always hot lol.
Tobi, you know that i mean it when i say i understand you. I'm not gonna say you're not a monster. You are. I'm one, too. That's what i've been trying to tell you all this time. But i can try and make you feel better, right?
That was a rethorical question, of course i can make you feel better. Cheer up. I'm still around, aren't i?
Lol I'm the only one in my town who always wears one. I even wear one when it's HOT. XD
Yeah, okay. I will. But he came home and I can tell he downright hates me now. It's gonna be while but who cares anymore. Thanks, Azie.
[HUG AZLYN]
It's not always in your best interest to ignore your problems and hope they go away. You don't talk to your parents at all about this? You should, in my opinion.
THIS IS LITERALLY THE BEST FANDOM ON EARTH I AM SO PROUD
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iTQGe--Ys_0#t=99
Haven't you heard? They won't BELIEVE me, anyway! I can't have them laugh at me, okay? I can't.
You can convince them to take you seriously.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2F3V1hFhahw
I have a friend who wears long Johns all summer and two pairs of socks. If I put that on at sub zero temps I'd sweat to death. Don't know how you can do it lol.
Damn that Titan knows how to dance!
Talk about a professional "streaker"! XD
EVERY TITAN DANCE NOW!
I SWEAR TO GOD THIS SONG WOULD WORK IN AN ANIME OPENING. I LOVE THIS!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ivrVZSgmEJs
Uh All this gloomy shit is killing the mood. We should do something fun. Hmm.... OH I GOT ONE. Alright I want everyone to give themselves and two other characters of the comic a theme song. If you're not in the comic, you could still give yourself one. ;D
I'll start first.
My theme:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcdWAJ13VBs&feature=player_detailpage
Azlyn's Theme
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JX2xl3hd_zM&feature=player_detailpage
GuiltyKingaOumaShu (I found this song fitting to him for some reason as you can see him as some kind of revolutionary as well)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zk0Sr0C3yYM&feature=player_detailpage
OKAY YOUR TURN!
.... OH SHIT I JUST REALIZED I HEARD THIS BAND IN A FAN MADE DBZ OPENING, NO WONDER I RECOGNIZE THESE SONGS! I LOVED THEIR MUSIC!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NN9rezVV1cA
No, really, i can't.
Gotta love Iron Maiden.
I feel like Death note's opening song would fit well with my character.
NOOO! No Mark don't leave
I mean you can do what you want to do, I'm not going to stop you from doing anything. But this place won't be the same if you leave
But it's your golden birthday. The one where the date matches your age. Mine isn't for another 13 years, so of course I'll make you a birthday thread. Just so you know we are here for you.
Hell yeah.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2AmrIydnXIs
MADNESS FTW!!!
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