Your Issues and How they affect you
Here is a place to share your problems (Mental, physical, social) without judgment and tell how it affects you as a person and maybe we can understand each other better. I'll start off...
I have crippling anxiety and depression which genetic...I can not get rid of it and I over think many things. I constantly think about how every little social interaction affected my relationship with that person, no matter who it is, stranger I'll never see again or best friend. This makes me worry that I always mess up and i'm just a bother to other people around me. I constantly worry about that i'll lose my friends and family and my real life friends constantly providing negative reinforcement doesn't help my situation. This crippling anxiety does cause horrible depression that I will fall into a lot. The depression doesn't make me suicidal (Thank everything) but I do worry even more than just my normal anxiety, I get philosophical, I think about the meaning of life and who I will be in the future. The depression will show on posts on here and although what you may think, it isn't me wanting attention it's me suffering. I will constantly protect others with these problems as I know what it feels like and I don't appreciate people being ignorant about that.
Now we move on to my physical and social issues...There are some... I first of all am not the most fit person and it constantly gives me low self esteem with social interactions. When I say i'm not fit I mean I'm not obese but i'm not skinny and I have problems with it.
Social issues are something different entirely... I have had a pretty shitty life probably like everyone. Throughout my life I have been bullied and forgotten by friends and family and this causes some of my low self esteem issues. I suffered through elementary and most of middle school for my physical issues and mental issues. I became very rude and a dick because of this, I thought I was better than most people and they are just jealous, this of course was a lie I told myself to feel better. I abused my friends and I regret it so much...Some of the people have forgiven me and others haven't, of course I can't change the past but I have changed myself and are still changing. I realized half way through middle school that "Hey...I'm a dick" and wanted to change that. If you have had interactions with me of the Forums then you realize that I'm nice but I can get rude. To this point I have experienced so much that you can try and explain and issue to me and I will most likely have had it. I've been bullied, been a bully, went through multiple mental issues, abuse by friends, forgotten...So much...
So, what have you went through, how did it make you...You? Don't be afraid to get into detail like myself as we can help each other resolve our problems or atleast feel better about it, please, work with us.
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I have tons of problems, most of them in my past now, but I wouldn't even know where to start explaining them. If I did, it would be a novel.
Concerning your problems, you have to stop caring what people will think of you so much. You can't help the judgments people make, you can only be confident that you acted the best you could have. And if you didn't, it's not the end of the world. Learn from your mistakes, forgive when you need to, and brush your shoulders off and keep on moving. Dwelling on what you may have done wrong won't get you far.
I have quite bad depression, anti depressants don't do anything. It makes everything boring and miserable, can't concentrate on anything. Something happened to me in my childhood which has fucked me over for life, sex is ruined for me, I can barely talk to people properly, I flinch like a twat whenever anybody comes near me. I'm just sick of it all, I've put up with this shit my whole life it feels like. I just wish I was conscious of how bloody wrong it was as a kid, how could I have not fucking said or done something? I could've fucking ended it. I just went along with it like a fucking retard who thought it was normal.
I know this is easier said than done and probably might sound a bit patronising but you've got to try and not care what people think of you. I few years ago I used to get really anxious talking to people, so much that my eyebrows would start twitching and I'd want to run away. I was so anxious I'd just shut myself off to anyone who wasn't already my friend. But then I decided I wanted to change so I made an effort to try and talk to as many strangers as I could, I'd say hi to random people in the street and I'd make conversation while waiting for the bus. It was hard and it led to a lot of awkward moments but it was worth it because my confidence slowly began to improve. I'm still not the most confident person ever but I'm better than I was.
You should just practise talking to strangers (not the creepy ones) because it might help with your confidence. The way I see it is that if you make yourself look like an idiot in front of a complete stranger then it doesn't really matter because your probably never going to see them again anyway.
ATR you can share your problems here, write a novel it's okay.
Someone told me that I have anxiety and depression, which is probably true. I worry about everything, always thinking I will fail, in school, in life, and pretty much at everything. At recess I have sat alone by myself for 8 years, rarely getting up to play. In that time I just kept thinking about life, the future, about everything that was on my mind. Some people tried to be my friend, and tried to cheer me up but I always turned them away. I've only had a few friends, and even then I felt like they kept me around because they felt bad. I don't feel like I have any real friends because I just don't feel like we connect.
When I walk home from school with my "friend" he always finds people he knows and talks with them, and I just tag along, and there isn't much room on the sidewalk so I'm in the back by myself. When people talked in circles I never said anything, I was always the guy who was just "there" if you know what I mean, I didn't contribute, I didn't do anything, I was just there. I've wanted to suicide for a long time, but I've finally gotten over it, and I'm really glad that I didn't. I try not to care about what other people think about me.
My social ability is very weak. Especially with girls. Like I said in another thread, I sweat on my forehead, hands(which I put in my pockets to not show), I feel like I'm shaking, and I start tearing up so it looks like I'm crying. I can't make conversation at all and it's been said by other people that I was a depressing, boring loner.
I'm a bomb waiting to go off. I just have these moments where I get really angry and I do something stupid. I've hurt a lot of people, in real life and on this forum, most of them friends. I've been banned twice, said some really stupid stuff, and made a lot of mistakes that have been pushing me to leave since September. I don't want to hurt anybody anymore, I feel like I should just be cast out, remain a loner so that I won't lash out.
Nobody seems to understand except you people on here, or maybe you're just being really nice. I may seem nice on here but in real life you'd never hear a word from me, and I might physically, or verbally harm you. I've hated myself for all my mistakes, and I know I can't go back, so it's scarred me forever. I just feel like I should stay away from everybody, the forum was fine with me gone, but I can't leave. Being here to me is a curse, and a blessing.
I'm going to fail at life, that much I know. I have a very low self esteem, and when people say nice things about me I just pretend they're trying to make me feel better, pity me, or are just way too nice for their own good. I don't feel like I belong anywhere, and I hate talking about my problems like this because there are people out there who have it worse, and I'm fortunate to have the life I do. But it does make me feel better to talk about it so again it's a good thing and a bad thing for me. Anyway enough of my rant. Sorry. :P
I'm very sarcastic as well...I like to make people laugh so it benefits me.
I think there isn't anything wrong with you...It's just you deal with death easier than others.
Hey! Don't say this.
Depression is a bitch, I saw your thread on suicide and posted something there. You might think your life is ruined and it sounds like because of your past you are scared. It's okay to be scared and you can't change the the past, find people who care.
I don't really want advice on my problems, that's not why I made this.
Here's my raging bro.
First off, I'm here because you're awesome.
Find new friends, it's hard and you're scared but you should at least try...
I'm glad you didn't.
This is common with a lot of people and you can try to change it but it commonly ends badly. Don't worry about what does people think about you, just shrug it off and forget about them because it's obvious that they don't care about you.
You've told me this before and just remember if you ever come to that point just PM me and take out that anger on me.
It was sad here without you as it is if a valued member leaves, I kept wanted you to come back.
Don't worry about sharing your problems, just because others have it worse doesn't mean you don't have it bad. You belong here buddy,with us. Don't worry about the rant, I want people to do this.
I can't find new friends because I'm horrible at talking to people so they'll have to come to me and that never happens so I'm just with the people who slightly hang out with me. I've heard this all before :P. Right now I'm doing alright it's just stress, and me looking back on my bad past that's keeping me down. Thanks though.
Yeah...My past haunts me... Oh well.
Voltaire
Let us listen to the songs of Lord Voltaire!
PTSD other than that i'm pretty normal.
Is it wrong of me to ask why you have PTSD?
It's completely okay to not answer if it hurts you too much.
@sprocket23
Please, don't do that. You are - strong. It seems that each of us in this world thought about it. Almost everyone stupidity committed in childhood, which then regretted, and I'm including. But the main thing that you regret. You are realized their mistakes, not all who have committed no fault of their own, but because of the other.
Do not say that. We need you. If you want, I can be your friend here. I have seen many support you and I am not alone. You can relying on us whenever you want. We're all friends here. Sometimes good people do bad things. Because bad things happen to everyone.
Sorry for my bad English, if that. I am from Ukraine and I'm glad to be here with you guys
I have OCD, I know that feel.
Well I have clinical depression and I'm sometimes very insecure about my sexuality still, but I've got good people around me who support me.
You should get that checked out. :P
You shouldn't be insecure about your sexuality, you love who you love, remember that.
Who is this directed to?
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I know that I have been diagnosed with Aspergers. I also think that I have severe depression and I may be bipolar, I don't have many problems but the problems I do have hurt me quite a lot. I don't get bullied in school which is good but I don't go anywhere with people out of school, I just stay at home. I see all these kids going to parties and getting drunk and It's horrible just watching them have fun, now the main problem I have has something to do with relationships online, I would talk about It but It's a touchy subject. That's basically my issues and It's made me suicidal as fuck but hopefully stuff works out. I would commit suicide If I could but I literally don't have the balls to do It, It's impossible for me. I have some serious anger issues too, sometimes I'm very sensitive and then other times I'm quite horrible. I cry pretty much every night, It feels good but I know I shouldn't be doing It obviously.
It's okay to talk buddy, this is what this thread is, don't be afraid. Don't do suicide, it's horrible, suicide doesn't eliminate the possibility that life gets worse but does eliminate the possibility that life will ever get better.
I don't know what caused it, It could of been the destruction of my family, or abuse i suffered as a kid, or things i experienced in war. I think i was fucked up mentally when i enlisted, but its been so long ago.
Well hopefully your life is better now.
It's been months and I'm still not over It, It's just gotten worse.
There is no cure for PTSD, you just have to live with it, substance abuse helps.
Sometimes i feel like i forgot to lock the front door to my house, ever get that feeling?
Like I said, it eliminates the possibility of it ever getting better...It may not be right away but one day.
I know, there is no cure for a lot of mental conditions.
Substance abuse is wrong George, it can harm you a lot.
IT MIGHT BE WRONG BUT IT FEELZ SO RIGHT.
Besides i got to give back to the "community", how else would low income families make it on Obamanomics.
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Thanks Obama!
Fuck yes.
I hope It gets better, I have loads of methods to deal with It but I don't know which one to choose.
ask every female out out, One will say yes.
Make it into a game, say to yourself that you want to be rejected every day, like 10-20 a day.
Trust me, you live like this, you'll whole attitude on life will change. Just ask them out, get yourself one, and be happy.
I'M.SO.GODDAMN.LAZY.
Like, at this very moment it's 10:50pm and I have to finish an important presentation until Tuesday. And I already delayed it, I should actually have held it on Thursday. Two weeks ago. And I'm still only half finished.
I think the fact that I am posting this comment proves just how friggin lazy I actually am
Oh, and there is another important presentation on Friday and I haven't even started. And I write a classtest on Wednesday but guess what I haven't learned a thing yet.
FML
Maybe i have a little OCD, it doesn't bother me because i normally just say F it, because there is nothing i can do about it 30 miles away.
I don't think lazy is much of a mental issue...But...It is an issue so it's fine.
Oh I know, but lots of people feel differently, and it's the things they say that fuck me up.
Yes, the world is fucked up, it's okay, ignore those people, stand by what you believe.
Funny enough we have arguments on here but we still respect each other...I do for you at least.