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Goodbye random citizens!

sprocket23sprocket23
edited December 2014 in General Chat

I know I know, this boring suicide malarky again. Sorry, you guys are the only people on the internet Ive found who seemed a bit interested. I'm going to kill myself tomorrow. As I write this, I am lying in bed. It is strange to think this is the last night of sleep I will ever get. Anyway, I thought I'd post it here, as I wanted at least someone to know I'm dead. I don't even care that this is blatant attention whoring, I don't care about anything anymore.
Also, if I tell people I have to go through with it, can't chicken out.
RIP Scott Turner, 17th December, tomorrow o'clock.

Comments

  • CrazyGeorgeCrazyGeorge Banned
    edited December 2014

    Dude, don't kill yourself please. If you want to talk send me a pm and i'll give you my phone #.

  • GoldenPaladinGoldenPaladin

    No...Don't.

  • Raging_BladesRaging_Blades
    edited December 2014

    Oh my... I literally screamed no at my computer. sigh I guess I couldn't help. I never do... I... I'm sorry you feel so bad that you have to do this. I just want you to know that I care, and I wasn't pretending. I really wish I could type up another long ass post telling you to stop, but you've made your decision and I can't stop you. I'm not sure what to say... Goodbye friend, you'll be missed. I'll pray for you every night, until I die myself. I know words from internet people aren't that much, but I really hope what we said meant something to you. It's really tough to hear someone say they're going to kill themselves the next day, and I can't do anything about it. It hurts, but if you really think this is the answer, if you really think no one cares, then I have nothing else to say but you're wrong, and farewell.

    I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BmErRm-vApI&list=RDYy0AmZu3xLg&index=8

  • AWESOMEOAWESOMEO Banned

    ...

    God bless you Scott.

  • bloopbloop

    Dude, don't kill yourself. You'll only bring more pain to your friends and family.

  • sprocket23sprocket23
    edited December 2014

    Damn man, that song made me cry even more than I already was. I do appreciate your effort. I just can't handle this depression any more, its driving me insane. Its like being locked in a blank empty room for years, it slowly drives you crazy. Be happy for me man, I can finally escape the misery. I wasn't going to look at this thread again, thought I'd look once before I went to sleep. Glad I did, nice song indeed.

    Raging_Blades posted: »

    Oh my... I literally screamed no at my computer. sigh I guess I couldn't help. I never do... I... I'm sorry you feel so bad that you have to

  • Eddie_MaidenEddie_Maiden

    https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gVEDnyDMHHQ

  • TDMshadowCPTDMshadowCP Banned

    This helped me out a bit before. Hopefully it helps you too.

    Are you thinking about suicide? Thinking about how, if you killed yourself, nobody would care? Think again. If you kill yourself you will change somebodies world. That’s right. They will see everything differently. Just hearing your name will burn their mind with memories. They won’t be able to go near where you lived, even your town will hold memories. Listening to the radio they’ll hear that song, remember,that song you sang with them once? They’ll step past your locker every day and wonder why you are not there. Why are you not there? Do you want to be responsible for your family members, the people who love you, crying every night? For your sisters or brothers losing part of who they are? Your suicide is going to effect most deeply those who care about you most. That’s not right. One of your friends may break down, and just like you, their world will be dark. The pain you are in is awful, but why pass it on to hundreds of people around you, when you could try your hardest to work through it? Your family will be paranoid. Suddenly everyone will be talking about them. Do you want to be known as ‘the kid who killed themselves’? People you never knew will be crying when they hear what you’ve done. Yes, they will be affected. Everyone around you will stop and think “was there something i could have done?” Suddenly the people of your world are dying with guilt. All those little hints you gave, they’ll remember them. Oh yes, and it will torture them all the time. Your friends will think of suicide. Your closest friends are likely to go into a depression like the one that claimed your life. How will they cope, without you? This will break them, for the rest of their lives. And lets not forget the people who will plan your funeral. Your closest friends and family picking out songs for you, photos of you. Crying all the night before, and all the day of your funeral. And all the night after. In fact, they will cry now more than you ever did. Could they have saved you? They’ll be angry. Oh yes. Why didn’t you tell them? They loved you. And now it’s too late. They’ll be angry with you because they know, they know you could have gotten through it. Then they’ll be angry with themselves because they may have been able to save you if only they knew. And one day, one day years from now, they’ll remember you. They will all still remember you. The girl that sat up the front of your class; she’ll remember you. The bus driver you saw every morning; he’ll remember you. That little girl you sat with on the bus once, The kid you leant money to at the shop, all your siblings friends, the people that you don’t see, but that see you everyday, they will all remember you. And every single one of them will wonder; why? But imagine your family. You are part of them. Without you, something is missing. If you killed yourself then part of them dies too. They are incomplete. Every family gathering will be missing something. The photos on the wall are suddenly all cold reminders of what you did. Who goes through your bedroom? Who cleans out your locker? Who calls the school to tell them one of their students has died? Who tells the students? Who calls the funeral directors? Who arranges a coffin for you? Who calls your best friend to tell them you’re dead? Who finds you? Please, there are other ways out. I know sometimes the struggle is very, very hard, but it’s not worth giving up on life. Life is all we have, life is everything. Its the beautiful moments, and the sad ones. Please, don’t give up on all those around you. You can make it through. My teacher said this about her father, who committed suicide: “I understand that the pain is overwhelming, but I will never forgive him for the pain he has caused others. It was just selfish. If you kill yourself you spread the suffering among thousands of people, it doesn’t only affect those around you but everyone who has ever come in contact with you.” Please, keep fighting. You can get through this and see that there is life after what you’re facing now. It may be hard, but you’ll get there, and when you do you will appreciate it so much more. I understand that most people know that suicide effects others, but please keep this in mind if you’re ever feeling so low. Give people the chance to help you.

  • GoldenPaladinGoldenPaladin

    ...Um...Do you want some Voltaire?

    Voltaire

    I don't know the exact reasons for your...Actions...I just hope you enjoy. I do recommend you listen to Voltaire if you have little time left.

    GoldenPaladin posted: »

    No...Don't.

  • Raging_BladesRaging_Blades

    Crying is good. I'm glad it helped at some extent. I really hope that you think this is the best. Although I would disagree.. Have a good rest, and I hope you find happiness in whatever there is after life.

    sprocket23 posted: »

    Damn man, that song made me cry even more than I already was. I do appreciate your effort. I just can't handle this depression any more, its

  • Blind SniperBlind Sniper Moderator
    edited December 2014

    Judging by the fact that you are announcing this, I'm going to assume that this is a cry for help and that some part of you is still debating that choice. Ultimately, we can't force you to make one choice over another, but please know that help is out there. Both in this thread and in your previous thread, several users offered to reach out for help and also provided you with resources you can use. I hope that if nothing else, you've at least considered using the help offered. I know this saying is a bit cliche, but it really is a permanent solution to a temporary problem.

    I'm going to close this thread to prevent people here from potentially abusing this discussion. Please don't mistake this as an attempt to stifle discussion or to swipe your call for help under the carpet, as that is certainly not the case.

    Telltale Moderators are volunteers - not Staff members, so don't take this as an "official statement" or anything, but I'm going to nudge you towards a list of Hotlines you can call (compiled by Reddit users) that I hope you consider.

    List of Hotlines (compiled by users of Reddit)

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