Going to strangers on the Internet is one of the easiest ways to tell someone about something (like a spat of depression). It's anonymous and if you don't agree you can just as easily disappear. It's a great way to talk about something without having to face the person. Could you hold this conversation if we were together?
That being said easier is not always better. This conversation, if you bring it up to your family (I hope you do), is going to be hard. It's going to be awkward and embarrassing on your end. It's going to be utterly rewarding, hopeful in nature, and the start to a full recovery for you, and everyone who knows you, in the long run.
Right now something is wrong with the chemicals your brain. It's not controllable for you anymore than your heart pumping blood, and isn't likely to get better unless you actively try to fix it. This speaks absolutely nothing about who you are as a person, who you aspire to be, and who you will blossom into if you give yourself the chance.
At one time I felt like my parents hated me too. I was sitting at home with no plans other than eating more of the food from their fridge. But they didn't, they were confused and worried about me. I can't say for sure because I don't know you, but I'd be willing to bet your parents do care for you. And if they don't then they aren't worth your time. Remember not to judge yourself by how others judge you. They aren't you.
And if you don't like yourself when you judge yourself and don't consider the judgments of other people then strive everyday to do things you will be happy looking back on in recollection. Donate money to the orphanage, help the old lady across the street, take that smelly homeless guy down the street to McDonald's and buy him a jalapeño double (those things are the shit!). Live happily through the happiness of others.
Jumping in front of a train would definitely do the trick. Seems like too many mechanics not in my control for my liking, but to each their own. Plus I'd rather not have my body in a pudding jar at the funeral Does it get bellow freezing in the UK? That would be a fairly peaceful way to go.
Right now I'm thinking a well timed quick jaunt across the train tracks is the way to go.There's no way I'm surviving that, and the body sho… moreuld hopefully get quite mushed up in the process.
I've been told so many times, to go out and do stuff, but I can barely get out of bed, I stay in for ages as I don't want another day to start. I try and do things, but I cannot get any enjoyment out of anything anymore. My brain won't let me.
Lol, I am honestly serious about no one caring. Why would I go to strangers on the internet if I had someone who cared? I've never had anyone.
I just shared my personal background to get you to understand that people out there does know how you feel. But uh, thanks. And I'm sorry about you too.
Death has a heavy toll on the people who loves you are left behind. They feel a lot of sadness and pain, even regret when it's suicide. Even your family will feel it, despite your problems with each other. And what if in the afterlife(pretty good chances there is one) you still feel the same? It doesn't go away, the suffering, you gotta start fighting back. Listen, if there's a possibility to feel better, get a doctor(a good one, it's hard to find one unfortunately), and take some proper strong medication if you have to. And just think about what I told you, reconsider, you don't want to die, I know it, otherwise you wouldn't have mentioned it.
Damn, I'm sorry that happened to you. I honestly don't get this you'll make others suffer argument. Literally, no one will suffer. Even if t… morehey did, their suffering would eventually end. And fuck it, if I can end my misery, I don't care if someone feels a little sad about it. I admit it.
Not really. I care about everyone, even Hitler, even the Devil.
That's how much I care. Call me crazy but that's just how I think. I love everyone who ever was, is, and will be.
Sorry, I'm going to have to close this at this point. I've left it open because you decided to post here, which is a good thing as it shows that you're open to discussion rather than wanting to do anything rash immediately. We really can't have people taking you up on suggesting methods to commit suicide, and this thread is veering towards that, so I'm going to have to stop it here.
Please, don't commit suicide. Things really do get more manageable if you get help. Please use the help offered in this thread, and if you ever need to talk to someone online who's been there, you can PM anyone who's offered to talk to you through that method, or you can PM me as well.
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Going to strangers on the Internet is one of the easiest ways to tell someone about something (like a spat of depression). It's anonymous and if you don't agree you can just as easily disappear. It's a great way to talk about something without having to face the person. Could you hold this conversation if we were together?
That being said easier is not always better. This conversation, if you bring it up to your family (I hope you do), is going to be hard. It's going to be awkward and embarrassing on your end. It's going to be utterly rewarding, hopeful in nature, and the start to a full recovery for you, and everyone who knows you, in the long run.
Right now something is wrong with the chemicals your brain. It's not controllable for you anymore than your heart pumping blood, and isn't likely to get better unless you actively try to fix it. This speaks absolutely nothing about who you are as a person, who you aspire to be, and who you will blossom into if you give yourself the chance.
At one time I felt like my parents hated me too. I was sitting at home with no plans other than eating more of the food from their fridge. But they didn't, they were confused and worried about me. I can't say for sure because I don't know you, but I'd be willing to bet your parents do care for you. And if they don't then they aren't worth your time. Remember not to judge yourself by how others judge you. They aren't you.
And if you don't like yourself when you judge yourself and don't consider the judgments of other people then strive everyday to do things you will be happy looking back on in recollection. Donate money to the orphanage, help the old lady across the street, take that smelly homeless guy down the street to McDonald's and buy him a jalapeño double (those things are the shit!). Live happily through the happiness of others.
Jumping in front of a train would definitely do the trick. Seems like too many mechanics not in my control for my liking, but to each their own. Plus I'd rather not have my body in a pudding jar at the funeral
Does it get bellow freezing in the UK? That would be a fairly peaceful way to go.
I just shared my personal background to get you to understand that people out there does know how you feel. But uh, thanks. And I'm sorry about you too.
Death has a heavy toll on the people who loves you are left behind. They feel a lot of sadness and pain, even regret when it's suicide. Even your family will feel it, despite your problems with each other. And what if in the afterlife(pretty good chances there is one) you still feel the same? It doesn't go away, the suffering, you gotta start fighting back. Listen, if there's a possibility to feel better, get a doctor(a good one, it's hard to find one unfortunately), and take some proper strong medication if you have to. And just think about what I told you, reconsider, you don't want to die, I know it, otherwise you wouldn't have mentioned it.
Best words, man :')
We are so much alike
The world needs people like you
Honestly, I'm a little offended this thread is even on here, why are we talking about suicide, really. I find this inappropriate.
Sorry, I'm going to have to close this at this point. I've left it open because you decided to post here, which is a good thing as it shows that you're open to discussion rather than wanting to do anything rash immediately. We really can't have people taking you up on suggesting methods to commit suicide, and this thread is veering towards that, so I'm going to have to stop it here.
Please, don't commit suicide. Things really do get more manageable if you get help. Please use the help offered in this thread, and if you ever need to talk to someone online who's been there, you can PM anyone who's offered to talk to you through that method, or you can PM me as well.