Depression & Social anxiety (also used to have PTSD, hypervigilance, touch/physical contact phobia; detachment from my emotions (probably down to a form of secondary psychopathy due to extended exposure to and mistreatment at the hands of primary psychopaths), chronic ongoing insomnia and something bordering on dissociative disorder.).
There have been periods in my life where I've been so tense I've not been able to swallow food but things are about a thousand times better now. I got over an extreme gag-reaction that made going to the dentist a bit of a chore and I can leave the house a lot more easily.
For the S.A. (Social Anxiety) I took courses and workshops and went to support groups. I'm also in psychotherapy three times a week and probably will be for the duration (at one point the people I was under were talking about me getting therapy five days a week and there was even talk of me having to have a brain scan but it turned out not to be necessary.
Getting back in touch with my emotions was hard. Now I can feel joy and compassion (as long as I take my antidepressants and can steer clear of extended periods of human interaction).
I don't really go out, I don't have friends and it's weird but I don't feel lonely; the alternative is just too awful not to be grateful for my isolation.
Sometimes I wish I could live on my own in a mountaintop monastery with nothing to do all day but meditate and look at the view.
Sometimes I wish I had a partner but it's a fantasy (seriously...like from a Disney movie. Maybe Beauty and the Beast, only, Beast owned property (that really cool magic house that's just a total babe magnet) :0/
Unfortunately I don't have a sunset to carry anyone off into.
More and more I feel like I just want to spend my life meditating, but it's boring and I want an Occulus Rift, and a soul-mate, but I don't believe in those any more.
I have OCD and I'm sometimes socially awkward.I'm trying to overcome it though.I also dealt with depression before and tried to kill myself(yeah,it was that bad).
I was born with APD (audio prossecessing disorder) I have poor social skills because it. having this disorder lead me builled in high-school that lead to depression as an adult, with depression I have anxiety and insomnia some times. Yes I know what its like having problems with meeting other people, saying the wrong thing when you meant in a different way. It makes you feel isolated and that you don't fit with other people, your different but you just don't want to stand out in the crowed. Yes I understand, it sucks its horrible.
I have crippling anxiety and depression, the rest of my family has to take medicine for it. I don't...Why?...Because I just lost my sanity and don't care, still can't control it, I just have a better time handling it.
Yeah it bothers me when people are just like "DAFUQ JUST GET OVER IT GOOOOOSH!" because it's never that easy
I can't just change who I am in a matter of moments...
Due to the fact that I've walked around with ASD without knowing it until 2012 when I got diagnosed at the age of 27, I had developed a soci… moreal anxiety disorder during my teen years, as well as a chronic depression. After getting the diagnosis, it has been getting less, and I'm guessing it's going to be less since I'm going to follow a program to lessen the social issues I'm having. My depression though is a different thing, even though I don't have the typical depression symptoms now, because it's chronic I will never get rid of it, I can only manage it so that the symptoms won't return. But meh, so far it's going great, and as long as I don't forget how it feels like being depressed chances are slim I'm falling back.
EDIT: Also, I do have some irrational fears, like snakes, spiders, insects, other creepy crawlies, dark alleys (not because of muggers, ghosts or zombies, but because I associate dark alleys with filth), grass, ghosts, zomb… [view original content]
I guess I have some bad social issues. I barely talk at all. When spoken to I respond, but with a short answer(usually one-five words) like … more"Yes, No, Maybe, Okay," and stuff like that. Biggest thing though is when I talk to girls, or adults things go bad. I want to make eye contact, so I do. But when I do my eyes start watering and it feels/looks like I'm crying.Then I start getting really hot especially in my forehead. My palms are usually sweating in my pockets, and if I have the chance, I back away slowly. I don't make conversation, and if someone starts one with me it lasts around a minute, and if I'm lucky then around 5 minutes. I usually just loner out and whenever around a bunch of people and try to isolate myself.
Inside I really want to just break out, and talk to people and stuff. But I'm afraid I'll screw up as always. I never know what to say, and I basically feel like I'm just taking up space. Half of me says to get out th… [view original content]
I have anxiety - sort of social - as well as PTSD, OCD and clinical depression. Meditating helps me quite a bit by letting me take a step back from thoughts and focusing on something specific.
But thanks so much George. I appreciate the support, and I've heard people say this before. Right now I'm doing better, so I'll keep this in mind. You're a good dude George, you ain't crazy!
Raging Blades
All you need is self confidence. If you believe it, it will happen. Trust me. Stop telling yourself everyday, you can't and start saying you can.
I'm pretty shy and not really talkative, sometimes kinda depressed. This is also a reason why I joined a forum, I hoped to improve myself th… moreis way by trying to talk to new people but it's not yet working out. I don't know, I just never know what to say.
OH lol Its true though dude. I'm not sure how old you are , but if you believe in yourself women will too. Trust me on this one.
IT DOESN'T MATTER What you look like.
All you need to do, is everyday wake up and look at the sun drink a beer or whatever you need to do to get your game face on. Tell yourself your the baddest ass person, watch movies like Rambo, start lifting weights. this problem will go away. Start Sarging now because, middle school/high school is the best time of your life to practice Sarging. If you don't do it now, it will be bad later
Woah! This thread was from May!
But thanks so much George. I appreciate the support, and I've heard people say this before. Right now I'm doing better, so I'll keep this in mind. You're a good dude George, you ain't crazy!
I have crippling anxiety and depression, the rest of my family has to take medicine for it. I don't...Why?...Because I just lost my sanity and don't care, still can't control it, I just have a better time handling it.
OH lol Its true though dude. I'm not sure how old you are , but if you believe in yourself women will too. Trust me on this one.
IT DOE… moreSN'T MATTER What you look like.
All you need to do, is everyday wake up and look at the sun drink a beer or whatever you need to do to get your game face on. Tell yourself your the baddest ass person, watch movies like Rambo, start lifting weights. this problem will go away. Start Sarging now because, middle school/high school is the best time of your life to practice Sarging. If you don't do it now, it will be bad later
Glad to hear its going man.
no When i got back from Iraq, not caring helped me deal with all my emotional problems. However it made me into a uncaring asshole. Just recently i been working on getting my humanity back.
My PTSD isn't actually combat related; it started when I was eight due to an illness. No where near as bad as combat-related PTSD, but I had it for ten years without it being diagnosed and it's almost completely ruined me, so I know what it's like to experience the symptoms.
I get anxious as fak when I talk to girls I like. My face turns red and I sweat and stutter like crazy. Also presenting in front of the clas… mores makes me very nervous. How do I deal with it? By avoiding girls and avoiding presenting in front of the class.
I wouldn't call it social anxiety, more like somewhat irrational paranoia. For example, being in a crowd and thinking "someone can easily stab me if they wanted to", or "why is that person looking at me like that, are they planning to hurt me in some way, better watch them to make sure they don't follow me". Checking all the possible exits when I enter a room, trying to stay near the walls, as opposed to the center of the room. Looking periodically over my shoulder when walking out of an establishment, or to my car. Going into a slight panic when my ride is late, and I'm convinced something bad happened to them. Never wanting to go out alone at night, because it's easier to be to be taken in the dark, always having a stun-gun, knife, pepper spray, and soon to be concealed gun on my person. Checking all the windows and doors to make sure they're covered and locked before going to sleep, as well as making sure the electric fence is on, personally training my 2 dogs to attack intruders/anyone who is a threat. I think it's a good thing that I'm so cautious, but I know I go overboard sometimes..
I was always shy. Just before my teens I got anxiety, I was always scared when I saw someone from school i used to think they talked about me and I rarely talked and hated it. Now I love the quiet and I don't care what people say about me. Still not a good talker though.
Hey, just now getting to contributing... I have terrible anxiety. Never been properly diagnosed, but I shut down a majority of the time when I'm in public or at school. I can't even pee at school (unless the bathroom is empty) because of how the other girls get in the bathroom. I'm so terrified to do anything. My mom says that if I was really suffering from anxiety, I'd be scared to go to the theme park near my house. But I associate that place with good memories, it's rarely crowded, and it's seldom loud, believe it or not.
Everyone says I'm just faking it, but I've been diagnosed with clinical depression and I'm beginning to suspect that the thing wrong with me may be Schizotypal Personality Disorder. It perfectly describes me to a freaking T.
I know what you mean. Ever get the feeling that you don't really blend in with the people around? Like you're sort of an outsider? I get that whenever I go out in public, whether it be school or around town. I feel like I'm not really fully accepted into whatever community that faces me.
Listen, try and get an expert on depression to talk to your parents. If you can't, just remember that your safe on here
Hey, just now getting to contributing... I have terrible anxiety. Never been properly diagnosed, but I shut down a majority of the time when… more I'm in public or at school. I can't even pee at school (unless the bathroom is empty) because of how the other girls get in the bathroom. I'm so terrified to do anything. My mom says that if I was really suffering from anxiety, I'd be scared to go to the theme park near my house. But I associate that place with good memories, it's rarely crowded, and it's seldom loud, believe it or not.
Everyone says I'm just faking it, but I've been diagnosed with clinical depression and I'm beginning to suspect that the thing wrong with me may be Schizotypal Personality Disorder. It perfectly describes me to a freaking T.
I've actually improved a lot since I last posted here. I still have some awkward moments (ordering at Subway for the first time was a nightmare), but I'm actually talking to people more and even close to dating a girl at my school.
Ever get the feeling that you don't really blend in with the people around? Like you're sort of an outsider? I get that whenever I go out in public, whether it be school or around town.
Same here.. which is why I generally just keep to myself. I absolutely love the feeling of walking around town/campus at night though. Adds a feeling of anonymity and comfort. I actually feel far more secure and relaxed. Even a little cocky..
I know what you mean. Ever get the feeling that you don't really blend in with the people around? Like you're sort of an outsider? I get tha… moret whenever I go out in public, whether it be school or around town. I feel like I'm not really fully accepted into whatever community that faces me.
Listen, try and get an expert on depression to talk to your parents. If you can't, just remember that your safe on here
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Kind of. I occasionally have those quiet moments when all the things I'm worried or regretful about all hit me at once. Fuuuuuck, I hate that feeling.
Depression & Social anxiety (also used to have PTSD, hypervigilance, touch/physical contact phobia; detachment from my emotions (probably down to a form of secondary psychopathy due to extended exposure to and mistreatment at the hands of primary psychopaths), chronic ongoing insomnia and something bordering on dissociative disorder.).
There have been periods in my life where I've been so tense I've not been able to swallow food but things are about a thousand times better now. I got over an extreme gag-reaction that made going to the dentist a bit of a chore and I can leave the house a lot more easily.
For the S.A. (Social Anxiety) I took courses and workshops and went to support groups. I'm also in psychotherapy three times a week and probably will be for the duration (at one point the people I was under were talking about me getting therapy five days a week and there was even talk of me having to have a brain scan but it turned out not to be necessary.
Getting back in touch with my emotions was hard. Now I can feel joy and compassion (as long as I take my antidepressants and can steer clear of extended periods of human interaction).
I don't really go out, I don't have friends and it's weird but I don't feel lonely; the alternative is just too awful not to be grateful for my isolation.
Sometimes I wish I could live on my own in a mountaintop monastery with nothing to do all day but meditate and look at the view.
Sometimes I wish I had a partner but it's a fantasy (seriously...like from a Disney movie. Maybe Beauty and the Beast, only, Beast owned property (that really cool magic house that's just a total babe magnet) :0/
Unfortunately I don't have a sunset to carry anyone off into.
More and more I feel like I just want to spend my life meditating, but it's boring and I want an Occulus Rift, and a soul-mate, but I don't believe in those any more.
I have OCD and I'm sometimes socially awkward.I'm trying to overcome it though.I also dealt with depression before and tried to kill myself(yeah,it was that bad).
I suffer from anxiety due to my depression and history of eating disorders. I'm not good with talking formally, I just fumble and shit.
Well I have aspergers so maybe?
i'm super shy
Anybody here normal? No...?
I've had anxiety for as long as I can remember; it was so severe back then that I couldn't enjoy myself in preschool. Nowadays it's pretty mild.
Define normal
I was born with APD (audio prossecessing disorder) I have poor social skills because it. having this disorder lead me builled in high-school that lead to depression as an adult, with depression I have anxiety and insomnia some times. Yes I know what its like having problems with meeting other people, saying the wrong thing when you meant in a different way. It makes you feel isolated and that you don't fit with other people, your different but you just don't want to stand out in the crowed. Yes I understand, it sucks its horrible.
I have crippling anxiety and depression, the rest of my family has to take medicine for it. I don't...Why?...Because I just lost my sanity and don't care, still can't control it, I just have a better time handling it.
nope, other than my sunny PTSD, i'm GOLDEN BABIE>
Just don't care. Drink your feelings away like the rest of us.
Ever seen a ghost?
Raging Blades
All you need is self confidence. If you believe it, it will happen. Trust me. Stop telling yourself everyday, you can't and start saying you can.
how did you get your PTSD combat too?
Woah! This thread was from May!
But thanks so much George. I appreciate the support, and I've heard people say this before. Right now I'm doing better, so I'll keep this in mind. You're a good dude George, you ain't crazy!
Say Anything Gary, people are generally friendly there are a few planters you should watch out for.
The standards set by society to depict the majority.
That is "Normal".
OH lol Its true though dude. I'm not sure how old you are , but if you believe in yourself women will too. Trust me on this one.
IT DOESN'T MATTER What you look like.
All you need to do, is everyday wake up and look at the sun drink a beer or whatever you need to do to get your game face on. Tell yourself your the baddest ass person, watch movies like Rambo, start lifting weights. this problem will go away. Start Sarging now because, middle school/high school is the best time of your life to practice Sarging. If you don't do it now, it will be bad later
Glad to hear its going man.
Honestly, not caring is a good first step towards beating this.
XD I lost my sanity though.
Possibly the best advice ever.
Nahh. You're fine. If I could handle it, so can you. Just gotta believe, man.
Oh I can handle it but can't control it.
By "handle it", I mean get rid of it/ learn to control it.
1 way to get over a mental illness.
Well I don't think I can get rid of it but hey, I might.
Sarcasm?
no When i got back from Iraq, not caring helped me deal with all my emotional problems. However it made me into a uncaring asshole. Just recently i been working on getting my humanity back.
Kind of like Seven of Nine.
My PTSD isn't actually combat related; it started when I was eight due to an illness. No where near as bad as combat-related PTSD, but I had it for ten years without it being diagnosed and it's almost completely ruined me, so I know what it's like to experience the symptoms.
Touché.
Trust me, avoidance is not the answer.
So yes then
I wouldn't call it social anxiety, more like somewhat irrational paranoia. For example, being in a crowd and thinking "someone can easily stab me if they wanted to", or "why is that person looking at me like that, are they planning to hurt me in some way, better watch them to make sure they don't follow me". Checking all the possible exits when I enter a room, trying to stay near the walls, as opposed to the center of the room. Looking periodically over my shoulder when walking out of an establishment, or to my car. Going into a slight panic when my ride is late, and I'm convinced something bad happened to them. Never wanting to go out alone at night, because it's easier to be to be taken in the dark, always having a stun-gun, knife, pepper spray, and soon to be concealed gun on my person. Checking all the windows and doors to make sure they're covered and locked before going to sleep, as well as making sure the electric fence is on, personally training my 2 dogs to attack intruders/anyone who is a threat. I think it's a good thing that I'm so cautious, but I know I go overboard sometimes..
I was always shy. Just before my teens I got anxiety, I was always scared when I saw someone from school i used to think they talked about me and I rarely talked and hated it. Now I love the quiet and I don't care what people say about me. Still not a good talker though.
Hey, just now getting to contributing... I have terrible anxiety. Never been properly diagnosed, but I shut down a majority of the time when I'm in public or at school. I can't even pee at school (unless the bathroom is empty) because of how the other girls get in the bathroom. I'm so terrified to do anything. My mom says that if I was really suffering from anxiety, I'd be scared to go to the theme park near my house. But I associate that place with good memories, it's rarely crowded, and it's seldom loud, believe it or not.
Everyone says I'm just faking it, but I've been diagnosed with clinical depression and I'm beginning to suspect that the thing wrong with me may be Schizotypal Personality Disorder. It perfectly describes me to a freaking T.
I know what you mean. Ever get the feeling that you don't really blend in with the people around? Like you're sort of an outsider? I get that whenever I go out in public, whether it be school or around town. I feel like I'm not really fully accepted into whatever community that faces me.
Listen, try and get an expert on depression to talk to your parents. If you can't, just remember that your safe on here
I've actually improved a lot since I last posted here. I still have some awkward moments (ordering at Subway for the first time was a nightmare), but I'm actually talking to people more and even close to dating a girl at my school.
Same here.. which is why I generally just keep to myself. I absolutely love the feeling of walking around town/campus at night though. Adds a feeling of anonymity and comfort. I actually feel far more secure and relaxed. Even a little cocky..