So, some guy said I was full of shit and was rude, I took it well, but decided to stop with all of that and ran into my new conflict.
I'm 23 years old and I might be asking this for the rest of my life. I'm trying to remain balanced about the whole thing. Maybe I'm not the most level headed person on life. I never really cared about the system of life. Well, as a part of it I've played my own role. But I never really chose a direction and said I'm going to stick with that. Maybe I just see too many faults, flaws in what I do , I pick it apart and judge it critically because I don't want to limit myself to just one field. Maybe it's certain parts of me that I always wanted to explore that I just can't in certain fields. Things I want to prove to myself. Well maybe others, but it's a you and others world, even if you're self honest, I still have to live with people and the way they make me feel some times is just nasty. People say some hurtful things and they make me feel limited with certain opinions about who I am or have to be.
You know , maybe I just have certain energies and parts of me that I want to explore different parts of life. And I don't want to start accepting who my boss is going to be and structuring my life around that. And as far as hobbies go, sure, why not but most bore me and don't seem to complete me. It just feels like I'm wasting time.
I'm not even sure I want to make a living off advertisement and trying to manipulate people. But that's the field that I am in. It feels like I'm being very honest but also learning to tell lies in that field.
I know our economy , world is supply and demand, mostly, and that I could advertise for a living. Maybe even be good at it. I just don't really feel it. But, I'm supposedly just a artist, people saw my strengths early on as a artist and I've never been able to live it down, but some where along the line I got bored, and I didn't really improve that much as a artist. And I'm not really that inspired to work on it.
I'm not sure if I don't believe in myself, or if I just don't want to make a money off my art and limit myself from doing anything else in my life. Once I prove I can do , master something I usually get bored and move on. That's what I do.
Of course there's always room to grow, but it doesn't feel that way inside anymore, it feels like, I enjoy doing art, but it's not really something I want to be recognized solely for, that I want to give more, find a field where I actually give something.
Not just as a artist, or a person everyone, the world sees me as, but more, to actually live my life, surprise people, do something with my life. I don't want to be a cookie cutter image of myself and what others already expected.
It's not so much about ego, maybe it is, I know I'm giving you a lot to think about here, respond to. It's just that I don't feel like being known for just one talent, gift, is good enough and that one talent and gift can't lead into other things, something interesting.
I mean, how boring would it be if a tv had several channels but each channel only had one thing on it? I wouldn't enjoy that, it's sort of like that with my art work.
Take a handy man for example, he can do anything with his hands. But my art, it just , I feel like it's not just a motion of my hand, I feel like it's a part of my mind, my soul, and that I have more to inspire to, that my mind and brain has more to offer with this talent, my imagination, creativity.
I feel inspired to maybe learn a little more, be more creative. I don't want to be known as some one who has a mind, brain as such and does the simplest , most rhetorical thing over and over and over again with that mind, brain.
Everyone has to pick one thing, limit their selves, but people see some one artistic and the first uninspiring thing that comes to mind is art, and art is great, but I just don't feel like it has a real purpose or direction. It's just going in circles on a tight track, round and round, in circles on a tight track. I don't feel like it's finding a real outline for that creativity and inspiration and energy.
I just don't feel right and art is sort of a social field as I understand it and I'm socially retarded. So I don't know what to do.
I think my philosophies had the right ideas, wrong words, wrong scientific concepts and so I lost meaning towards academics and my video posts can only be scrutinized now.
One of the greatest questions. But I was referring to the X Files.
But, it's rubbish man, it's just dreams. And, you know I never questioned before really what the objective is. I don't think I want to divert all my attention to that at this time.
The only reason I ask is because I've watched some of your stuff. And end game, I need ot know what I give attention to and where it could potentially take me. Not that I'm arguing against you continuing with your own journey. Everyone goes down their path.
I love all of you guys, girls. But please respect the miracle, respect self honesty, respect self forgiveness , if your intentions are pure we will be shown the way, the path, all of us , our own path, and it will be beautiful, even through suffering.
Humanity needs help,and needs to start helping itself as for the greater good.
You might be a crystalline child, coolsome, where you born in the 80s?
I was born in the 80s but I'm not sure if I am one and I respect that.
Though, I have seen "spirits? and had people speak to me in my mind, thoughts. And once I did the same and it was awful because I said something hurtful. I try not to do that anymore.
You're a adult now cool some, do you know what crysalline children are, "new children" for the human species.
Actually, basic algebra can very easily, very simply show some of my most basic philosophies of teleportation. Maybe not in the direct, normal sense of showing it, but if you take it as concept, simple basic algebra can show it in examples. But, I'm not going into that, I have math homework as it is.
Nevermind, delete or close please. No one cares, and I don't want to waste my time or energy on something like this then. Back to my own inner balance. Sorry I posted this at all.
These are the ones that I've "seen" or "dreamed" about. I know these were claimed to be fake, that doesn't change my dreams that I had before I found the images on line.
Isn't he/she , it, beautiful? I mean, really beautiful. So beautiful.
One time I dreamed they were all lined up around me, or in a line of some sort. And this is what they looked like. Yes, white light room.
No, I'll be alright, but never "sane" again. One experience after the other. The truth really is stranger than fiction of this world. Anyone who even gets a taste is bound to be "not all there". I'm not crazy, I'm just different. I never had choice, wouldn't have it any other way. I'm not angry, or mad, I'm just open to a different point of view...
In respect to you, I'm not sure what you're asking and if I should cause imbalance between us. I don't detect that you take this sort of thing very seriously and you're structured in this "real world" mindset. But, I stand to be corrected and more balanced within this. There is an entire universe, and the human species is just out of diapers, but that's something you have to gauge, as it's a age concept, measurement, yes? You'd have to first believe in other species. ETS , but I'd call them inter-dimensional beings.
First I suppose , like a gradient , I want to sort of map our energies and see where we're at. I have a fair amount of stories , not as many as some people , but a fair amount. And simply starting off about them like a diary, won't do either of us any good.
How I got to this point, mentally, suppose physically? Well, can actually look most these things up yourself, magnetic propulsion, light teleportation, universe, hyperdrive, abduction reports, brain wave entertainment. The universe subconscious and consciousness. Awareness, astral traveling. Astral projection. Time. Light. Relativity. Space/ time relativity, infinity. Matter, mass, light, energy, waves, universe sound waves.
Etc etc ...
I never went to these things directly, my mind just sort of drifted on a cloud through a storm through these subjects and then I was standing out in the rain.
I understand most people don't want to see outside the box, because they don't know how often that box expands. With teleportation technologies, I would bet you, that technology just went insane and really fast, extremely fast, scientist probably were shocked by some of the break through from teleportation technologies.
It's not a new thing, scientists study these things, search the web if you think I'm nuts, and they even study spiritualism with science. Yes, they do, hard for some people to believe, but they do.
Higher dimensions, meditation, awareness, mind body system, holographic realities.
It all began when I was a young boy and saw a bright red light in a large wheat field. I woke up in our drive way in our car. And I have dreams, flash backs of some things, some that I won't ever share, some that I will.
What the human species fails to realize is that yes, we aren't allow, and we're still in diapers and ancient to us civilizations had bombs, had technologies that would surprise the hell out of most of you.
Call me crazy, whatever, the information is there for you, search for it if you wish.
It's actually very common, very, that people my age 23 and around there have actually experienced alot of what I've been through, that I can remember. Because, I can't remember lots of it.
Sorry for not replying back with an equally big post, but how can you prove some of the more nutty (No offense, don't know what other word to use) stuff? At some point people thought that world was flat! Now I imagine you truly believe in all of this stuff, but see it from, let's say, my point of view. I've never been abducted by "aliens" (Not as far as I know), and now there's craploads of stories everywhere about abductees. I won't just blindly believe in that, because it may sound legit in some strange way. I do believe that we're not the alone in the universe, which is huge and we're just a little little part of it, but green/grey men abducting people for tests? Well...
I am not yet qualified to argue on all of the subjects you're proposing, but I won't jump into believing in every single word, because you write them in a very confident and, what seems to be, thought out manner.
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I'm 23 years old and I might be asking this for the rest of my life. I'm trying to remain balanced about the whole thing. Maybe I'm not the most level headed person on life. I never really cared about the system of life. Well, as a part of it I've played my own role. But I never really chose a direction and said I'm going to stick with that. Maybe I just see too many faults, flaws in what I do , I pick it apart and judge it critically because I don't want to limit myself to just one field. Maybe it's certain parts of me that I always wanted to explore that I just can't in certain fields. Things I want to prove to myself. Well maybe others, but it's a you and others world, even if you're self honest, I still have to live with people and the way they make me feel some times is just nasty. People say some hurtful things and they make me feel limited with certain opinions about who I am or have to be.
You know , maybe I just have certain energies and parts of me that I want to explore different parts of life. And I don't want to start accepting who my boss is going to be and structuring my life around that. And as far as hobbies go, sure, why not but most bore me and don't seem to complete me. It just feels like I'm wasting time.
I'm not even sure I want to make a living off advertisement and trying to manipulate people. But that's the field that I am in. It feels like I'm being very honest but also learning to tell lies in that field.
I know our economy , world is supply and demand, mostly, and that I could advertise for a living. Maybe even be good at it. I just don't really feel it. But, I'm supposedly just a artist, people saw my strengths early on as a artist and I've never been able to live it down, but some where along the line I got bored, and I didn't really improve that much as a artist. And I'm not really that inspired to work on it.
I'm not sure if I don't believe in myself, or if I just don't want to make a money off my art and limit myself from doing anything else in my life. Once I prove I can do , master something I usually get bored and move on. That's what I do.
Of course there's always room to grow, but it doesn't feel that way inside anymore, it feels like, I enjoy doing art, but it's not really something I want to be recognized solely for, that I want to give more, find a field where I actually give something.
Not just as a artist, or a person everyone, the world sees me as, but more, to actually live my life, surprise people, do something with my life. I don't want to be a cookie cutter image of myself and what others already expected.
It's not so much about ego, maybe it is, I know I'm giving you a lot to think about here, respond to. It's just that I don't feel like being known for just one talent, gift, is good enough and that one talent and gift can't lead into other things, something interesting.
I mean, how boring would it be if a tv had several channels but each channel only had one thing on it? I wouldn't enjoy that, it's sort of like that with my art work.
Take a handy man for example, he can do anything with his hands. But my art, it just , I feel like it's not just a motion of my hand, I feel like it's a part of my mind, my soul, and that I have more to inspire to, that my mind and brain has more to offer with this talent, my imagination, creativity.
I feel inspired to maybe learn a little more, be more creative. I don't want to be known as some one who has a mind, brain as such and does the simplest , most rhetorical thing over and over and over again with that mind, brain.
Everyone has to pick one thing, limit their selves, but people see some one artistic and the first uninspiring thing that comes to mind is art, and art is great, but I just don't feel like it has a real purpose or direction. It's just going in circles on a tight track, round and round, in circles on a tight track. I don't feel like it's finding a real outline for that creativity and inspiration and energy.
I just don't feel right and art is sort of a social field as I understand it and I'm socially retarded. So I don't know what to do.
Thanks.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UEVV7WAZkII&feature=channel_video_title
I can show you so much evidence pointed towards this, such as spiritual beliefs. And I pulled that video out my rear before watching her video.
Here you go, my memory of my dreams is coming back guys and girls
Watch this guy's video, he basically confirms lots of things for me, and well, maybe I can help him.
The thing is I just do it. I don't have a goal.
It just sort of happens.
The truth is not that far out there, I can tell you that, my friend. I'm not sure how close it is. But, I can tell you it can very close.
Then again, those are just dreams...
One of the greatest questions. But I was referring to the X Files.
But, it's rubbish man, it's just dreams. And, you know I never questioned before really what the objective is. I don't think I want to divert all my attention to that at this time.
Trust me things will work out, especially if your intentions are truly pure.
Humanity needs help,and needs to start helping itself as for the greater good.
Your a fan of Torchwood Miracle Day too?
I was born in the 80s but I'm not sure if I am one and I respect that.
Though, I have seen "spirits? and had people speak to me in my mind, thoughts. And once I did the same and it was awful because I said something hurtful. I try not to do that anymore.
You're a adult now cool some, do you know what crysalline children are, "new children" for the human species.
I was born in 1989. So the last part of the 80s
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EgwlQxuK0NY
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qRGR5PDl8u0
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index;_ylt=Al4OgEAeEYXK5GgZvm9PKznsy6IX;_ylv=3?qid=20110902200525AA5UpND
http://www.ufoseek.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=20&t=2291
Poor guy, remembers alot more than I ever did. I'm sure he's completely insane by now.
These are the ones that I've "seen" or "dreamed" about. I know these were claimed to be fake, that doesn't change my dreams that I had before I found the images on line.
Isn't he/she , it, beautiful? I mean, really beautiful. So beautiful.
One time I dreamed they were all lined up around me, or in a line of some sort. And this is what they looked like. Yes, white light room.
I wouldn't kick it out of bed.
I would if it farted or ate biscuits or something.
If it didn't share the biscuits I would.
First I suppose , like a gradient , I want to sort of map our energies and see where we're at. I have a fair amount of stories , not as many as some people , but a fair amount. And simply starting off about them like a diary, won't do either of us any good.
How I got to this point, mentally, suppose physically? Well, can actually look most these things up yourself, magnetic propulsion, light teleportation, universe, hyperdrive, abduction reports, brain wave entertainment. The universe subconscious and consciousness. Awareness, astral traveling. Astral projection. Time. Light. Relativity. Space/ time relativity, infinity. Matter, mass, light, energy, waves, universe sound waves.
Etc etc ...
I never went to these things directly, my mind just sort of drifted on a cloud through a storm through these subjects and then I was standing out in the rain.
I understand most people don't want to see outside the box, because they don't know how often that box expands. With teleportation technologies, I would bet you, that technology just went insane and really fast, extremely fast, scientist probably were shocked by some of the break through from teleportation technologies.
It's not a new thing, scientists study these things, search the web if you think I'm nuts, and they even study spiritualism with science. Yes, they do, hard for some people to believe, but they do.
Higher dimensions, meditation, awareness, mind body system, holographic realities.
It all began when I was a young boy and saw a bright red light in a large wheat field. I woke up in our drive way in our car. And I have dreams, flash backs of some things, some that I won't ever share, some that I will.
What the human species fails to realize is that yes, we aren't allow, and we're still in diapers and ancient to us civilizations had bombs, had technologies that would surprise the hell out of most of you.
Call me crazy, whatever, the information is there for you, search for it if you wish.
It's actually very common, very, that people my age 23 and around there have actually experienced alot of what I've been through, that I can remember. Because, I can't remember lots of it.
I am not yet qualified to argue on all of the subjects you're proposing, but I won't jump into believing in every single word, because you write them in a very confident and, what seems to be, thought out manner.
Really hard to trust people these days.